Appreciate me for who I am,
not what I can do.
Listen to what I thought,
not what I said.
Judge me by what I will do,
not what I have done.
Remember me as I tried to be,
not who I was.
Because I am not me.

--Alwyn

Wednesday, 15 April, 2009
day 3 of my PG Astray construction.. very tiring day..


today, i totally didnt leave the house except for breakfast and lunch with my grandparents.. hell i didnt even leave the table..


progress of the construction so far..



managed to finish the whole of the right leg, the hip, both scabbard holder, and part of the left leg.. can see the difference in the volume of the leg with the armour on and without.. about 4 layers worth..



the katana hangs nicely from the side.. i can foresee some trouble with displaying this model in my display cabinet already =(



the 'face' at the end of the hilt..


k that is about all for the model today.. another full day of construction tomorrow..



it is good to finally find this feeling again.. the feeling of having a fixed short term goal and going all out just for it.. the feeling of total concentration when touching up the individual parts before assembling them together.. the feeling of not giving a shit about anything else other than that which i am holding in my hand..

it is a great feeling..

also, the construction process, whenever i am doing repeat parts, my mind has a tendency to wander and start spamming random thoughts.. not too good for my model.. easier to make mistakes that way.. whenever i feel too brain drained, i will just pop by the piano and tinker the keys for awhile to relax.. constant concentration is damn hard..

all these random thoughts.. most of them revolves around her.. seriously.. why does my heart have to be so stubborn? as though the 9 year stint not too long ago isnt enough..

initially, when i was chatting with her while the rest were at the Sentosa Countdown Party, i really, really, really wanted to go Kent Ridge Hall, so that i can see her everyday..

but sadly, these few months' lack of contact, her constant laconic replies, her seemingly i-dont-care attitude.. in a certain sense it is good, as it reinforces my resolve to give up on her..

and it also made me actually considering going to Sheares Hall instead of Kent Ridge Hall.. both hall camps clash.. so i gotta choose one.. soon..

just feel damn sian whenever i think of this..

10:55 PM

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